Why it hurts..

For the past few months, I have been trying to get over many things,

How I hurt someone..

How someone hurt me

how I commited Emotional Suicide on myself in an attempt to be happy when in the end, all I was going to get was more pain and suffering which is something I did not want..

But, all of this does not matter.

Sure every day for the past 3 months, I have been broken, I cant do what I used to be able to do,

Its hard for me to study without thinking about it..

its hard to me to go to work without thinking about it..

Its hard for me to live without thinking about it..


In just plain old simple terms... It sucks....

But I know one day I will get over the basic pain..

Knowing that I was happy once, with someone that I truly did love..

But I know it will still hurt me when I am alone and old and Grey..

This sucks..

-G