People and Choice, or lack of..

Its sad really..

People can't even make up their minds,

who is their friend..

who is the one they care for when all else is down,

who will they use and abuse just to make themselves fulfilled of something they have been void of..

Its a shame I let that happen, and it will and should not happen again..

-G

One past memory (part one)

The reason I can't sleep tonight,

I was thinking about a past moment..

A moment that still makes me smile to this day..


here I am, nervous and shy on a bench right outside of the security checkpoint at the airport, Waiting for someone I had not seen for a very long time..

People just staring at me like I was some kind of silly person just sitting there blushing, and being silly.. But then she came.. Sunburnt and all, but that did not matter, What did matter was the huge smile I saw when she finally saw me on the bench waiting for me. she came towards me and gave me a big hug..


This is all I can think about.. there is more to this story.. but I am getting sleepy again..

I will update it later..

Oh the twisted path's we weave...

... Emotions... Past memories just flashing at the blink of an eye because of one moment in the present...

That is what happened to me today..

I saw 30,000 memories all being crushed by the bladed sword of reality..

and it was why I was down..

There is more to it I suppose, that fact that nobody at work today seemed to want to talk to me..

It's just like I was not there, just in my corner of the box. In my cold and lonesome corner..

Sure, I am being depressed but who cares.. its how my life goes..

Its how my life carrys on.
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Its how my life will end, in the end..


But still, there is always still hope for that bright future,

and this Cold and endless summer will eventually end...

and I hope it does,

And I pray for a warm winter in the end.....

-G

The Blured edge of Reality, with a hint of fantasy

(Decided to give up on this b.S

The Third time is apparently not the charm

This past weekend was one of the best weekends of my life,

Someone was actually interested with me..

Someone actually wanted to hang out and be with me..

Yet in the end, she was not ready for someone like me,

someone who is only going to get in the way.

I guess that's how life works, to be honest..


I really should just stop trying and let things come to me. But I feel like I can not help myself but that's how it works.


What I should be more concerned with now is my future, instead of thinking about the people that can make me happy.

Right now I would rather be sad and moving forward then happy and moving backwards... but that's how life works..

Its crazy, it's unpredictable, and its never the same.


It's a shame that I ruin everything I touch these days, but I guess it is just karma catching up to me for my past mistakes..

Hopefully in time, things will get better, but you never know...

All I know for sure, this is going to be a very long weekend..

....

Looks like all I ever belived in is gone forever,

All those dreams..

All those memories..

My past is gone,

..

When I started this new year, I wanted a fresh start to who I am, What I do in life, and my Attitude Towards others,

Instead I get a year filled with Anger, Hatred, Sadness, Depression,Love, Death, and Failure

What a Year it has already been,

We are just only in the second day of june and Already, I am back to where I was in 7th grade, The wimpy lil boy who had no trust in himself, no belif that he can do anything at all in this world.

All of the things I have hoped and dreamed for this time just seem to be fading away.

Into the dark,

Betrayed by a "Friend" like I betrayed my Best friend, The Irony is amazing

Yet the pain is so real..

-Gary

FML!

Alright Haven't posted in ahwhile but let me just give a summary of today for you!!

FML!!

THANK YOU

-Gary